Will I

I was very upset on a few things lately. After going through of everything I was not happy. I kept think and think. Who I am?. What the things that I really want. I have been very far, till I cannot turn back. All the sadness that I have been through has been the obstacle to me to go forward. I am afraid to step forward.

What should I do now? God please show me something. I hate to be like this. Be the same at all time. I want to upgrade something, but things always not doing well. If I have the same opportunity, I want to do it again…

Russian Roulette--Rihanna

Take a Breathe, take a deal
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun and count to three
You're sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

Say a prayer to yourself
He says close your eyes, sometimes it helps
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here, means he's never lost
Rihanna Russian Roulette lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/rihanna-r...

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....

As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering if I will ever see another sunrise
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's to late to think of the value of my life

And you can see my heart.. beating
You can see it through my chest
I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So just pull the trigger.....